i don't know why my back is aching and hurting like this. it's supposed to be fine already. i really don't know what's wrong.
didn't want to tell my parents yesterday, but finally told them when i couldn't take the pain anymore. i didn't want them to worry again! and when i started crying, i knew it wasn't because of the pain, but because i was scared. scared of what, im not sure. it's just scary when you can't even sit down normally at the dining table to eat dinner with your parents.
and when my father told me, 有爸爸在, 有什么好怕的? i think he only made me cry even more. and so we went to see his chinese physician friend, since it was too late to make appointment to check my back at the hospital. and when i held on to my parents' hands tightly while the physician was pressing hard on my nerves (it's super painful ok!), i was reminded of how i bit on my father's arm when some doctor was stitching up my forehead at least some 10 years back. and it suddenly struck me, that they've been there for me all along. and i felt so xing fu. 幸福就在我的左右! :)
im much better now! i hope the pain goes away soon. pain, pain, go away, and never ever come again another day. mind over pain, and i'll be fine. so sian, never go to school today. haha, not that i love going to school la, but who will want such a cranky back just to miss school?
oh and canoeing nationals are starting tomorrow! jiayou hcanoe! huiwen2qi, all the way!
