but i can't spell it out for you

the previous entry was written one week ago. i didn't finish writing what i had set out to write, and yet another week has gone by! so today i was supposed to present part of my composition for music tech! but my teacher fell sick and our lesson got cancelled. (thank goodness for me again) i did manage to lengthen my composition by a few more seconds after spending another couple of hours in the lab. it's really tedious to try to come up with a nice melody with the right chords, and a good beat to go along. and even with part of the melody down, i take a really long time to choose the best instruments. the softwares they teach us to use are so cool they can do so much to change the colour of the tones and so i spend even more time trying to alter everything. maybe this explains why i take so many hours yet accomplish so little. but it's really fun! and being in the music tech lab with other schoolmates who look like professional music-makers (those stereotyped with messy hair, rugged appearance and who slam the keyboard with so much emotion) make me feel somewhat like one too, though i think i only fit the messy look criteria hahaha.

i suddenly wish i were in year 2009 now. i'll be feeling so hyped up and excited about my dajie's wedding and i'll be eagerly counting down to her big day. i'll be listening to "next plane home" and literally be on the next plane home! it seems too early to start counting down now, but since time flies anyway, i know it's not too faraway!

Paulo Coelho: When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. i don't think i have fully grasped the meaning of this quotation, but it reminds me of The Secret book which twinnie showed me in kino. im also reminded of this random day when i was on my way to one of my tutees' house, and was quite deep in thought. suddenly a thought flashed past my mind. i was thinking of my dad, (i can't remember what i was thinking about, but i know i really missed him badly) and then, right at that very instant, a dark red car came into view. it was of the exact same colour and model as my dad's car. i know coincidences do occur, and there are so many of that model out there, but the way everything happened was so beautifully fluid; on that very random day, it just left me stunned. anyone else will have thought nothing of it, but it felt so magical, it was something like having your prayers answered. so maybe, if i wish hard enough, all the mysterious forces of the universe will help grant this wish of mine. jia you!

incomplete

it may be a shadow in the crowds or a painting hanging on the wall. it may be an oddly familiar melody, a feeling, a conversation, or even lines in a poem. essentially, it may be anything and everything; something that reminds you of the past, something that brings a figment of your brain's archives to life. it is the oxygen that relights the glowing splint. and when it happens, memories flood the mind like a dam has been broken, and nostalgia hits as the splint bursts into flames.

i only have 2 days of school this week! labs on monday and tuesday, and that's my timetable for the week! everyone please do not kill me. i have no idea why my timetable's so slack too, i guess we're meant to self-study, but i'm going to treat this as a 5-day weekend holiday! i have music technology lessons on wednesday and friday though. the teacher just told us today that he wants to listen to our compositions next week. i'm so dead. last week i thought the other teacher (because we have two teachers for the course) wanted to listen to our songs, so i came up with 20 seconds of drum beat after spending 4 hours in the music tech lab. in the end he didn't ask us to present (thank goodness!), but now i'm back to square one again.