because some random person decided to leave his virus-infected tissue in a cup of drink at pastamania, i've been down with a horrible flu for the past week or so. it was that day after the hari raya pairs - second day of this brand new year - that we went there to have lunch. and i was not the only unlucky one who fiddled with that cup and landed myself in such a sorry state, as evident from how yiwen and zhibang caught the flu too. it was actually quite funny when i found out that yiwen came down with flu the exact same time i did. partnership agreement indeed, and to think that we still had so much fun playing with that cup of drink that fateful day. oh well, there're always clear skies before a storm brews over. i think my partner is still currently struggling to recover from this deadly virus. sigh, what a nice way to start off 2007.
the past week was entirely devoted to blowing my nose and playing bridge. i seriously have no recollection of what else i did besides going to yiwen's house and playing bbo with her, all in the name of training for the pabf trials last weekend. i don't know why im still feeling so down now over the trials, when it was apparent that we didn't have a chance in the first place. im just feeling so sorry that i wasted so much of my partner's time (and money) when she would be much better off with any other partner. anyway, to yiwen, if you happen to be lurking around here, i just want to say that im really sorry, p. im sorry for so many things that i've lost track of where to start from. i suppose if i think chronologically and recall back to the very first round against kenny and elon, i can already list down so many errors that i made. i can't believe i actually made my partner declare some ridiculous 3NTX-4 for the very first board that we played. and this was not all. i let opponents make unmakeable contracts, gave away free overtricks, declared dangerously, and bidded blindly, rendering our week of bbo training totally futile.
last golden harvest, the two of us were feeling really guilty that we dragged our teammates down with us and caused them to lose. yes, they should have won, if not for us (actually it's just me). so we thought we would be better off playing pairs events and not having to be answerable to whoever who would be unlucky enough to be our teammates. yet now i feel even worse than i had felt for nuss and golden harvest. being sick isn't even an excuse for bad play. i could see that yiwen was really trying her best to earn good boards for us, and the least i could do would be to just play normally. perhaps i can't even play normally. i just had to be stupid and give away imps even more generously than santa claus.
at the very least, i don't regret training for the past week because i did have fun being lame at yiwen's house. the trials itself was good fun too, but things should have been much better. i don't know which is worse - letting yourself down, or making an innocent party suffer with you. i know that "sorry" will never suffice, but at this moment, i really do not know what else i can offer but apologies.
i am really better off just being a dummy.
